*Tashakur*

yeh rehmat-e-Khudawandi nahi to kya hai.. k mein aj khush hon..!
dil mein panaptey hain ktiny he armaan.. ankhon mein hai chamak!
meri choti si duniya roshan hai.. aur mein Eid k maani samjh chuki hon!
bus yon he rahy meri duniya abaad aur ho jaen khawab sach..
umeed k diye dil mein jalye mein isi ki muntazir hon!
kese tashukar kru Khuda ka.. k mein to us ki adna si bandi hon!

and I can't become Color Blind...

One Kanwal says to me- how could you find happiness in that "green" color? that's color of death! color of those terrible moments! moments.. that left you traumatized! traumas.. that can never be healed.. Never!
right at the same moment, other Kanwal says to me- oh don't be so pessimistic dear! yeah it's color of death! but.. how can you forget that it's also the color of that last happiness with him! that last Eid with him! so you can also find color of positivity in it! if u only want to think like that.. keeping in mind ALLAH's grace on you after that death..

First Kanwal bursts out when she hears to the word "last".. nothing more seems to matter more than that..

After pondering upon all of these perplexities.. Kanwal who was listening to these two girls.. says.. both of you are right! I can never be able to listen to only one of you! so.. here I am.. mixture of you both! I neither deny ALLAH's grace nor that deficiency.. I cannot let anyone of you cancel other one's color as it will leave me COLOR BLIND...

Riddle of Life

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Author: Anonymous

From the day we arrive on the planet
And blinking, step into the sun
There's more to be seen than can ever be seen
More to do than can ever be done

Some say eat or be eaten
Some say live and let live
But all are agreed as they join the stampede
You should never take more than you give

In the circle of life
It's the wheel of fortune
It's the leap of faith
It's the band of hope
Till we find our place
On the path unwinding
In the circle, the circle of life

Some of us fall by the wayside
And some of us soar to the stars
And some of us sail through our troubles
And some have to live with the scars

There's far too much to take in here
More to find than can ever be found
But the sun rolling high through the sapphire sky
Keeps great and small on the endless round

PAUSE...

A pause can seize your life for good.

Without making your outer look crude!

Although it's mere virtual,

It bruises u deep inside

With every single day and, every single night..

Yes! You can't die with the dead, but

Some deaths pull you along into partial death.

Every time, you think of it

Memory of that moment

Leaves a scar on your soul.. very deep!

You want to shout!

You want to cry loud!

But... You hide it inside.. with a tear.

When you enter the world of dreams

It rides your nerves, 

It haunts you more..

Screams of reality come bursting in,

They throw you back

Dreamless at the shore!

You make your heart feel what is there no more

The feeling of him being with you...

Reality slaps you back! damns you..!

All your heart feels is a pause,

Your companion till you breathe..

You can't escape!

Can't get out of this unfathomable sheath!

(In memory of my DAD)

DREAMS...

me n my dreams..
dreams that are my companions.. all the time..
sometimes they relief my soul..
n sometimes they leave me more perplexed!!
my dreams.. my innocent dreams.. get scared..
of spectators.. all around me..
a shiver.. a cold shiver.. try to squeeze n shatter them
but then my eyes give them shelter n pamper them
n they start budding again..
under the warmth of my passions..
though.. meanwhile.. out of my eyes.. tears flow..
but.. they can't make heart beat of my dreams slow!!
so.. listen you! yes you! Spectators!
you can't make my eyes stop dreaming!
rather.. you make them more beaming!!!

Evolution...

Is evolution a part of life? or life is a part of evolution? working on my blog after a long time.. n have faced many evolutions during this very time period.. evolution of thoughts.. evolution of emotions.. evolution of moods.. evolution of relations.. strange.. its quite strange.. but the thing is what are the losses and what are the achievements.. oh.. its hard to decide.. just have to keep on going with faith.. and have to accept unpleasant, unwanted, and unbelievable evolutions.. its easy to say and hard to do.. sigh.. but on the other side i can't ignore that most of the times ALLAH has changed such evolutions into pleasant ones rather best ones for me n hope for the same in future =)